My Memories

My memories

I’ve never felt something like this on my entire life. I felt uncomfortable and bothered. Last night I dreamed of my ex-girlfriend. My dream showed that were both married and finding a new house and we found a small apartment. And my dream cut on it. Then I woke up about 6 o’clock early in the morning and I can’t stand up thinking of my ex-girlfriend. We unofficially broke up together about 3 years ago. We just broke up because of lose of communication (and it’s my fault, selling my old cell phone and not buying new one). I courted her about 3 years (2 years in high school days and 1 in college days) and having her in my arms about 2 years only. It’s my biggest mistake I have done on a girl. I always promised to her that we will see each other again (she wanted to see me every day but we were too far each other). I hooked on online games and forgot her. And this January 4, 2009 I dreamed about her and start surfing the net, looking on every site related to her place. And I found her on friendster, but something is not right. She looks like male. On her pictures she’s hugging a lady, her haircut is like a ordinary male with bleached hair, her dress is different, a dress of a mid aged man. She looks more male than me. I never thought that this would happen. Is it because I left her? Being my first girlfriend and being me as her first boyfriend?

I put a shame on me, why I leave her and exchange her to some online games. I never thought that she will become a lesbian. As of now I can’t take the truth. But I will forget her.